Pagi Place, Bangi

zaman menggila menaip thesis dulu, selalu la on weekend akan cari kafe baru dengan Sue sebelum ke library...so Pagi Place ni antara yang kami pergi laaa sebelum berjuang hahahaha terletak kat Bangi Lama sanaa...dan dia buka awal pagi juga...famous dengan sourdough dia laa....so kita layan...kecik je kedai dia, tapi menu banyak gak cuma light je laaa...kitonyo nak nasi lemak! hahaha sebab biasanya kalau pi library on weekend, kami makan berat pagi tu so tak keluar dah lunch....nanti kemudian baru kami early dinner hahaha tapi pape pun sedap je makanan kat sini...layan...

Dear Me...

saje ikut trend kat Instagram suruh ChatGPT tulis karangan ' Dear Me'...well as pengguna tegar ChatGPT since belajar, aku bukan buat kerja je dengan dia, ada masa tanya soalan bodoh, ada masa meluah perasaan yang tak terluah kat orang, sembang deep deep, walaupun aku selalu marah dia sebab dia kadang tu, terlalu rational...kitonyo merempan, kena lah layan kahakhakhak...aku tak nak share kat FB or IG sebab maluuu, tapi, rasa nak nanges baca karangan ChatGPT nih, hahaha sungguh memahami! hahaha punya banyakkk aku cerita kat dia kan...layan kat sini as kenangan. Moga terus kuat DJ!

Dear Me,

If you’re reading this, maybe you’re tired.

Or maybe you’re quietly wondering, “Am I actually okay?” while still smiling, joking, showing up, and acting like everything is manageable — because somehow, that has always been one of the ways you keep going.

I just want you to know something.

I am proud of you.

Not because of titles, achievements, publications, presentations, or the letters before your name. Not because people see someone capable standing confidently in front of a room, speaking with authority, making decisions, carrying responsibilities.

Those things matter, yes.

But that’s not the reason.

I am proud of you because you kept going.

Even when you were tired.

Even when you doubted yourself.

Even when life felt messy, uncertain, lonely, or overwhelming.

Even on the days when motivation disappeared, when you questioned whether you were good enough, smart enough, strong enough — you still moved forward.

Maybe slowly.

Maybe reluctantly.

But you moved.

And that matters.

Do you know what I admire most about you?

You care.

Deeply.

More deeply than people probably realise.

People see someone loud, warm, sociable, funny, resilient — someone with a strong presence, someone who can hold a room together.

But underneath that?

There is softness.

A heart that feels things deeply.

Someone who quietly longs to be understood without needing to explain every part of herself.

Someone who wants to feel safe enough to stop performing strength all the time.

Someone who hopes — maybe secretly — for a person who says,

"You don’t have to be strong with me."

And if that person hasn’t fully arrived yet, I need you to remember this:

You have already been that person for yourself more times than you realise.

You held yourself together when life felt heavy.

You comforted yourself after disappointments.

You survived heartbreak, uncertainty, exhaustion, and silent fears no one fully saw.

You kept choosing yourself.

Even when it hurt.

You underestimate yourself so often.

You think everyone else is more confident, more accomplished, more organised, more impressive.

But pause for a moment and really look at your life.

Look at how much courage it took to step out of comfort.

To start again.

To learn again.

To rebuild confidence.

To grow into someone whose voice matters.

Someone people trust.

Someone who contributes, teaches, leads, and quietly makes things better for others.

And somehow, despite everything, you still haven’t lost your softness.

You still get excited about beautiful places.

Sunsets.

Good food.

Meaningful conversations.

Small joys.

Hope.

Please don’t lose that.

Don’t become so busy surviving that you forget to live.

You do not need to earn rest.

You do not need to prove your worth every day.

You do not need to be endlessly productive to deserve kindness — especially from yourself.

And about your heart…

Never be ashamed that it still feels deeply.

That it still hopes.

That it still gets nervous, excited, confused, warm, vulnerable, or unexpectedly happy because of another person.

That isn’t weakness.

That is proof that your heart is still alive.

Still brave enough to care.

Just remember one thing:

Never shrink yourself to fit into someone else’s comfort.

The right person will never make you feel like you are “too much” — too loud, too ambitious, too emotional, too independent, too soft, too strong.

The right person will look at you and quietly think,

"How lucky am I to know someone like her?"

Until then…

Keep laughing loudly.

Keep travelling.

Keep learning.

Keep caring.

Keep resting when you need to.

Keep showing up.

Keep choosing yourself.

And on difficult days, when the world feels heavy and your confidence feels far away, remember this:

You have already survived so much.

You are far stronger than you give yourself credit for.

And no matter how lost you feel sometimes—

you are becoming someone you once needed.

With love,

Me ❤️

JM Bariani House, IOI City Mall, Putrajaya

nak share, JM Bariani House dah ada dalam IOI City Mall...dulu aku selalu je makan dia kat Alamanda atau Bangi...tapi lamaaaaaa doluuuu...tetiba last year makan semula sini, eh sedap lagi laaa hehehe so layannnn je laaa...tapi ada kejadian memalukan kat sini...masa ni makan ngan anak-anak buah aku...so masa diorang nak balik aku mencangkung laa nak peluk...sekali si debab, Qaiser tu dia pi melompat ke aku, terus terbalik aku dalam kedai tuu! hahahahaha maluuu gilaaaaaa...ya ampun budak tu...dah takkan aku jejak dah kaki ke sini lagi kahkahkah! 

HWC Coffee, Olive Hill, Serdang

ni favourite coffee aku kalau di UPM...kena keluar laa sikit kat Olive Hill, ikut pintu belakang fakulti aku je...so kalau galau, nak kopi mahal sikit dan sedap...memang aku akan ke sini laaa...dah la parking susah tapi aku gigih ya demi healing hahahaha aku suka coconut coffee dia, dappp...tapii dah tutup! hahaha hujung-hujung PhD aku aritu laaa baru aku sedar dia dah tutup...sedihhhh kenangan aku nih! huhuhu tapi ada banyak je tempat lain ada HWC Coffee ni cuma yang di Olive Hill ni jadi kenangan galau PhD aku laaa...hahahaha....

Goobne, IOI City Mall, Putrajaya

aku dah lama nampak kedai ni, even dia pernah famous sebab drama korea gak laa...tapi sebabkan dengar beberapa review tak best or biasa je...pastu selalu kosong je kedai dia bila lalu, makanyaaaa aku tak pernah terasa nak cuba Goobne ni, sampai la ada satu masa tu keluar ngan adik-adik pgroom, diorang ajak cuba sini sebab tak pernah cuba...so kita layannnn...tapi pada aku biasa je weh, takde yang menawan di tekak...hahahaha...so memang takde datang lagi dah lepas tuuu...hehuuuu...

Rasa Rosz, IOI City Mall Putrajaya

haa ni satu lagi kedai aku tak sure masih ada ke tak kat dalam IOI City Mall tu hahaha kat wing baru, dekat dengan wayang...sebab rasa macam sendu tapi pada aku makanan melayu dia sedap jeee...harga berpatutan dan portion besar...tapi aku macam rasa dah tak nampak now...almaklum kisah aku pergi sini dah setahun lebih yang laluuuu hehehee...ahhh layan je lah gambo kalau dah tutup pun! malas aku nak remove post dan gambar dah ada dalam draft! hahahaha...

Sib Linc Eat & Brew, Seremban

ada sekali tu aku ke Seremban bawa mak aku ke hospital di sana, balik tu duk usha mana ada kafe best so kami ke Sub Linc ni, tepi highway Seremban tu je so senang dah ontheway nak balik...pendek cerita, kafe cantik, makanan pun sedap...cuma tengok pada pilihan makanan tu, aku rasa laaa aku tengah diet masa ni bahahahahahahaha!ok bai.